Woo hoo!

[maderr]

The new guy starts today! He's been here about an hour, and I guess seems okay. Hard to tell anything about a person in that short a span of time. But hey, starting next week I get to go home at six. Whee!

On a more serious note, I am giving up grad school indefinitely. I want to go, it makes me insanely sad and frustrated that I can't. I've been deliberating forever, and it was probably obvious to everyone that I would never be able to go. Last night I threw in the towel. I will be here at FBT and in Cincinnati for at least another year.

But it will give me time to actually build up savings, which I've never had in my life. And who knows, maybe I'll become a famous slash writer in the meantime :P

I want food.

Comments

[yukihyou.livejournal.com]

That's the spirit! *waves meg's flag for famous slash writer* *grin* and you're already famous to me dear... ^^

[mikichan.livejournal.com]

Just because you are not going to england does not mean you can't go to grad school. There are colleges around here you could go to part time to start working on your degree. Eventually I plan on going back and getting a masters degree in finance. It would have been sooner but I can do that any time but my reproductive years only last so long :)

[skylark97.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Then I guess it is too late to frighten you with:

"goofyrobo and I voted and decided that if you don't go, then I'm moving you into my basement to be my concubine."

We figured you would find that terrifying even if I can't back it up.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

p.s. Trying to build up savings? I can highly identify with that plight. I will cheer for you.

[mailechan.livejournal.com]

A part of me is very sad because I know you were really wanting to do this. But another part of me is glad because now there is more likelihood of you coming down to visit me.

I know it was a tough decision, but there is still a chance. Take a course or two over the next year at some local college or school if you want to keep your hand in studying, and I will be rooting for you.

*hugs*

[maderr.livejournal.com]

You're my motivation, you know. I read your posts all the time about being happy where you are and not wanting to go higher, etc. I wish I get it through my head that is possible to be happy with the small life, and that I really don't want all the hassle that goes with the high life I keep thinking I should be reaching toward. I think I'm slowly starting to get it, but we'll see ^_~

[maderr.livejournal.com]

I'm not as upset as I thought I would be. And definitely want to come visit you!

And I may start taking courses here, maybe go back and get degrees in English instead of focusing on my Asian studies.

*hugs back* Thank you.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure you want me for a concubine. I don't take orders too well, you'd probably wind up being the one in chains.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Thankee. If I stay out of bookstores and away from dinners with Melissa ^_~ I should be all right.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you and your damn babies.

It's just hard giving up on something I was dead set on. But I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be. Maybe it's not what I really wanted?

[maderr.livejournal.com]

*loves* You guys are the ones that keep me trying.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Maybe, my best order giving would be along the lines of:

"YOU MUST NOW FULFILL MY DESIRES! That is, if you want to."

As for what would probably happen, would that be a problem for you?
Refer to my earlier post on handcuffs ^^

If you prefer, I can revise the ultimatum to: If you fail to go to grad school this year, then starparty must become my concubine, but I don't see how that could have motivated you.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Yes, restrict your bookstore use. I will reserve the right to chastise you in the future.

Heh, dinner would have not been that bad had I not ordered a tiny $8 salad to go along with my meal ^^

p.s. Expect a Constantine invite to go out on LJ for this weekend later on. Thought you might have a modicum of interest.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Eh, if I had a choice I would have remained an eternal college student.
I was going to go teach in Japan in the JET program. I elected not to go because I had just gotten a girlfriend and wanted to see how that worked out (don't need to be told how stupid that was). It was a new and interesting concept, and I learned a lot. Though, it should be fairly obvious how that worked out, but I do have an interesting job now that I never imagined I would have.

I think my point was that while debt and a girlfriend may be two separate things, there are some who would disagree. No, that really wasn't my point. I'm just rambling.

[starparty.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[maderr.livejournal.com]

JET was my original plan as well. I got the smack down though, and never managed to get into any other programs.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

^_^

And no, that would definitely have encouraged my decision not to do grad school.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Well you know, the blonde in DOA Ultimate does have that purple harem outfit. Mmm, Helena . . . where was I again?

[kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com]

I was going to say that. XD

[maderr.livejournal.com]

*snuggles ki-chan*

[yukihyou.livejournal.com]

*beam* Hive mind?

[kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuugs*

[kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com]

Probably. XD

[skylark97.livejournal.com]

Aw, I don't want you to be giving up on your dreams if those are what your dreams are. *hugs* I'm happy where I am, yes, but it's in part because I know that going higher would make me miserable. I'm not cut out for that kind of life or that kind of responsibility. (And yeah, initially my parents were not too keen on that realization of mine. Particularly since it took from age 21 to about 24 for me to figure it out. I drove them nuts.) Or, at least, if I am cut out for a high powered exec job, I'm not to the maturity or confidence level yet that being there requires. I also know that where I am now isn't where I'm going to be ten years from now. It's a bit of living in the moment. Part of it, is that this is where I get to figure out what my dreams are to begin with because I've spent so much time and effort into letting other people dictate what my dreams should be.

Jason knows tons of people on his floor who are in grad school and are ten to fifteen years older then him and going into second or third careers. I've got a friend back home who's been out of school for seven years and just now is getting ready to apply to go back to college. I talk to all kinds of people--both ones I work with and customers I talk to--who are going back to college and grad school after they've been out for years.

It's not a race. The first person to get a degree isn't necessarily the person who wins and nothing is ever set in stone. It's not like you pass a sign that says "Point of No Return!!!" when it comes to choosing a career or a lifestyle or a job. You can always change it later on down the line when the circumstances are working more in your favor or when it feels right. ;3

*hugs* I just want you to be happy, because you definitely deserve to be happy.

And I'm gonna quit babbling at you now and pretending that I have answers. ^-^;;

[goofyrobo.livejournal.com]

Don't you see, that's just how he'd want it anyways.

[goofyrobo.livejournal.com]

Seriously tho, look into local schools here see what they might have to offer. Weigh that against what your feelings might still be. Leave options open to/for yourself.

Or, just find some guy who will support you and crank out a few kids.^^ That was my plan, but I ended up on the wrong gender of that.^^

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

You know what? Kudos on making such a tough decision. Major kudos. It will happen some day, just get shit paid down, first. AND... there is always JET. You can reapply, you know, and they DO pay for everything, AND I send $800 a month home for bills and all is well. I know you got burned, but I would still totally recommend trying again. You could apply to the Cinci consulate (I think there is one?) and the process would be entirely different. Don't give up.