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maderrSo applied to about a dozen jobs in the space of....twenty minutes? Give or take. I love this internet age.
The thing I hate most about job hunting is the inevitable phone calls. I am at my best in writing - anyone who's met me can probably testify to this. I suxor major at speaking, talking, chatting, whatever. In person I can do all right. However on the phone I become Insanely Stupid. I don't know why.
Actually that's not true. I rely on my body language and expressions to convey what I can't verbally. Often what I want to say is lost somewhere b/t my brain and my mouth, so I ned the rest of me to try to convey the lost message. Seriously, I always mean to say this long, elegant, intelligent thing and it comes out "Cool" *headdesk* It's why people think I'm either insane, bitchy, or a moron. So phones are like my worst enemy. I can't write, I can't gesture or smile or anything. It relies totally on what I say and how I say it. And that's a very bad thing for me to rely on.
So bleh. This why I turn *oh fuck no* whenever someone says "you should call" blah blah blah. No, I shouldn't. I hear a phone ring or have to pick one up I just freeze up. It's stupid, I know, but that's the way it is.
I'm still trying to figure out how the fuck I did it at LC. Probably b/c that was so formulaic.
Ugh. Okay, that's out of my system. Now to go read that driver's manual so I can start to work on being that much less a burden. Bleh.
The thing I hate most about job hunting is the inevitable phone calls. I am at my best in writing - anyone who's met me can probably testify to this. I suxor major at speaking, talking, chatting, whatever. In person I can do all right. However on the phone I become Insanely Stupid. I don't know why.
Actually that's not true. I rely on my body language and expressions to convey what I can't verbally. Often what I want to say is lost somewhere b/t my brain and my mouth, so I ned the rest of me to try to convey the lost message. Seriously, I always mean to say this long, elegant, intelligent thing and it comes out "Cool" *headdesk* It's why people think I'm either insane, bitchy, or a moron. So phones are like my worst enemy. I can't write, I can't gesture or smile or anything. It relies totally on what I say and how I say it. And that's a very bad thing for me to rely on.
So bleh. This why I turn *oh fuck no* whenever someone says "you should call" blah blah blah. No, I shouldn't. I hear a phone ring or have to pick one up I just freeze up. It's stupid, I know, but that's the way it is.
I'm still trying to figure out how the fuck I did it at LC. Probably b/c that was so formulaic.
Ugh. Okay, that's out of my system. Now to go read that driver's manual so I can start to work on being that much less a burden. Bleh.
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Date: 2004-08-03 12:24 pm (UTC)Thanks for the offer. But my mind knows the difference b/t practice and reality. 'sides by this point I know them all by rote (sp?)
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Date: 2004-08-03 12:31 pm (UTC)Anyway though, my understanding is that you're bound to majorly screw up a few before you get the hang of it. If you do, don't worry. It gets easier (or you start to care less, one of those).