I suck

Sep. 25th, 2004 01:07 am
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I've always been moody but christ. Lately it's been out of control. Even S is losing patience with me and that's saying something.

Plus it never speaks highly of a person when *everyone* acts scared of her. I think I'm way too used to growing up in my volatile household.

So my computer has seriously given up the internet now. I don't know what's wrong, S doesn't know what's wrong, and I really don't know who else to ask.

I want to write but never have time anymore. I want my moodswings to stop.

And I really really want to stop whining. So I'm going to now. I'm the source of my own misery, so I may as well grow the fuck up and get over it.

Date: 2004-09-24 10:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com
...We're very scarily hiveminded, because I'm currently wallowing in some sort of funk, and I can't write properly, and my stories keep throwing me angst-twists that end so so so badly. Been fighting the urge to type up a post on how university SUCKS and how much I miss a lot of people, and been succeeding so far. (Mainly because it would suck if I guilt-tripped my friends into spending time with me, suck being understatement of the year, and...)

Yeah, you can sort of tell, because I'm talking really whinily. >_>; Sorry.

Just wanted to go O_o;; because man, our hive-mind-f00 is scary.

Date: 2004-09-24 10:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

Nah, oddly enough it makes me feel better. Not that you're suffering, of course -_-;; but at least I'm not the only one in a funk. If that makes any sense...>_>

You're not whiny. Not compared to me anyway. And I think my slamming the keyboard has scared S away permanently...

Long live the Hivemind. We are not alone.

*clingshugs*

I think I'm going to bed now. I'll catch you on the flip side if my computer ever starts working again.

Date: 2004-09-24 10:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com
Yeah, I know. It's nice to know someone else is in the same boat so we can whine together, huh? *wry*

Oh well, we can whine to each other! At least then we wouldn't irritate other people. :P

*hugscuddles*

Good night, take care and hope you have good dreams. *wubs*

Date: 2004-09-24 11:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rykaine.livejournal.com
Don't make me come down... over... wherever there and smack you. Read my rediculous story, kick the sorry ass computer, and fucking write something already. Not that much longer 'til Christmas, girl! Let's see some Nutcracker. Hop to, hop to!

Date: 2004-09-25 08:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

Yes, but how does one email said stories and upload them to site when my computer still is refusing to cooperate?

Okay, okay. I'll stop whining.

And d00d, I think you sent me your headache. It feels like someone is cheerfully taking an ax to my head.

Date: 2004-09-25 09:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rykaine.livejournal.com
Don't make excuses. You'll write the damned stories and you'll do it without complaint. By god!

Cheese!

Aren't those headaches fun. Now imagine having that 8 days straight. Fucking ow.

Date: 2004-09-25 09:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

You. Online. I would like a complete version of the Nutcracker story and I can't find it. Instead we're snickering over a dominatrix site. So get you ass online and find me the story.

Date: 2004-09-26 03:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mashoogina.livejournal.com
Are you making Nutcracker into Yaoi?

That just sounds wrong from the outset... send me a copy when you're done. :)

Date: 2004-09-26 04:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

Kind of sort of. I shall send it if you really want.

Date: 2004-09-25 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mashoogina.livejournal.com
Do you have a brain tumor?

Or is your head a barometer, too? I should work for the Weather Channel and predict storm fronts, weather changes, temperature drops, and any other meteorlogical phenomenon that comes along.

Date: 2004-09-24 11:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] miikarin.livejournal.com
Don't worry too much about it... It seems everyone is stressed... My whole family certainly is.

*hugs* I think that the story I will submit for your fluff challenge will cheer you up! (Even though it's kinda rushed and gosh, it's too sweet for me... WAY too sweet for me...)

Date: 2004-09-25 08:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

I look forwrd to reading it (though I don't at present know how I'll upload it).

Date: 2004-09-25 05:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] skylark97.livejournal.com
*hugs* I hate the moodswing monster. If I could gobble him up and spit him out in a thousand little digested pieces so that he'd never bother anyone again, I would.

I'm the source of my own misery, so I may as well grow the fuck up and get over it.

Nah. It's been my experience (or at least, in all the time where I'm riding the mood rollercoaster that never seems to end...) there are a lot of factors. Some that probably do have to do with you, some that are probably out of your control (like PMS. I have no control over that at all, but it always makes me act like a freaking lunatic.), and some that could probably be fixed. (Like, for me, sleep and diet are big ones. -_-;;)

Er, I'm not helping.

Just hang in there! *hugs*

Date: 2004-09-25 08:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

You're helping. Thanks Sky ^_^

I'll figure this thing out, and then I'll kick it's ass.

Date: 2004-09-25 08:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com
You're on! *pounce* Good morning.

Date: 2004-09-25 08:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

I'm upstairs waiting for my coffee to finish. I haven't yet been brave enough to try my computer.

Date: 2004-09-25 08:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com
*patpat* Good luck. *huuuuuugs*

Date: 2004-09-25 08:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kiyoshi-chan.livejournal.com
I agree with the PMS thing. >_>;;; I know some of my mood is probably due to hormones (stupid things) and the other half is just the environment + hormones. =_=;;;;

Date: 2004-09-25 09:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] starparty.livejournal.com
woah.. wait a sec.. who said anything about being scared off? Yes it did scare the crap out of me.. but only because it was loud and I wasn't expecting it. Dude you know how jumpy I am ;) You had said you were headed to bed and I figured I'd just make it worse if I wibbled at the computer so I just went to bed... annnd fell asleep about 2.5 seconds after I hit the pillow. I didn't even hear you come back down. So. I"m not scared of you, I'm not losing patience with you, I'm taking you to an apple festival and or Arrow and dinner. So there. XP

Now I need to go whack you in person.

Date: 2004-09-25 09:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mashoogina.livejournal.com
just smack her around and get her some new pjs and she'll be okay ;)

Thanx for taking care of her. :)

Date: 2004-09-25 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com

Like hell anyone is smacking me around...

Date: 2004-09-25 09:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mashoogina.livejournal.com
from one moody bitch to another:

but I loveded joo

Date: 2004-09-27 06:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raielchan.livejournal.com
So, were you just feeling depressed about that?
Better now?

Don't know, just catching up on these last 3 days of LJ or whatever.

Date: 2004-09-30 11:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] goofyrobo.livejournal.com
I'm not scared of you.^^

And yea, eventually the growing up thing hits and one thinks "well crap, already?"..I know I did.

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