maderr | Blah

thanks to

mailechan I'm utterly pouty I can't do my Dragonmatch story for Nanowrimo - b/t that and the story I had lined up, I seem to know a lot more of D, which means it'd be easier to write (not that I don't want to write the Blade and the Butterfly...). But I can't b/c the rules say you have to start from scratch.

Ye gods I do NOT want to put up with this construction for 6-8 weeks (and why it's going to take that long is beyond me).

If I'm lucky, I might have a hundred dollars for San Fran. Which is depressing, I thought I'd have more. I might get to buy one or two manga (and this is gifties aside - I want to buy those and have accounted for them). It really sucks. I thought with this new job I'd have more money and could actually buy nice things. Instead, things are the same as ever - I can buy nothing while everyone around me spends and spends. I fucking hate money. Just once in my life I would like to not have to worry about it, instead of counting every fucking penny and having to leech off others. I feel like a loser and I will feel that way until I'm something more than a penniless moron.

Must pack tonight and somehow find time to finish Embrace. And I still have that drabble I promised...sorry, name escapes my headache-y mind.

Makes the drills stop.