I suck

I've always been moody but christ. Lately it's been out of control. Even S is losing patience with me and that's saying something.

Plus it never speaks highly of a person when *everyone* acts scared of her. I think I'm way too used to growing up in my volatile household.

So my computer has seriously given up the internet now. I don't know what's wrong, S doesn't know what's wrong, and I really don't know who else to ask.

I want to write but never have time anymore. I want my moodswings to stop.

And I really really want to stop whining. So I'm going to now. I'm the source of my own misery, so I may as well grow the fuck up and get over it.