these guys seriously underestimate me
Feb. 2nd, 2005 05:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maderrSo.
From pretty early on when I started this job, one of the guys and a couple of the women here would make vague references to this "club" that the guy went to a couple of times a few years ago. But they would never tell Tom or I what the club was - Tom because he was immature and me they didn't want to traumatize or horrify.
Today they finally tell me it's a swing club. And to quote the one girl (in scandalized tone) "people walk around naked and there's different themed room" and the new guy was asking if it was the kind of place "where you could trade wives and stuff like that." "Yeah, or they all get together."
I, mean while, am both severely disappointed and trying to keep a straight face. Because after all that "once you know what it is you'll be scarred" I find out it's exactly what I figured it was. Granted, I clearly don't have their hands-on experience with this place but still. It takes more than kinky sex to traumatize me ^_~
I don't like the one new guy. He already shows all the symptoms of "If I don't have to do it, I'm not going to. Nor will I do it if I don't want to."
And I'm damned tired of doing the job of two point five people while everyone else does their own job and little else. I'm exhausted, frustrated, tired and snarky. I'm also so behind on my writing it literally makes me cry. I promised myself I'd never be the type of writer to mistreat her readers and yet that's exactly what I'm doing. I owe ki-chan, mailechan, seahawke, anatari and probaby several others stories (especially sea, jeez it's a wonder she even speaks to me anymore) and I want to finish Treasure and work more on Midsummer and so many others. I vowed to write 2000 words a day, which should be easy for me to do, but somehow I always make excuses and don't do it. Which frustrates me more and so the spiraling continues.
I want a break. A nice long weekend where I can clean my room, take a nice walk and listen to music while I write without feeling anxious or guilty about a bajillion other things. Over the weekend I begin to feel better but by the time I'm relaxed it's time to go to work again. And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, so forgive my whining.
All I have to do is make it through next week, hopefully. Gods I hope this guy accepts the position, b/c if not this will probably go on indefinitely.
Though, if for some reason I wind up not beig able to go to school, I had better see a fucking raise to end all raises when reviews come around.
From pretty early on when I started this job, one of the guys and a couple of the women here would make vague references to this "club" that the guy went to a couple of times a few years ago. But they would never tell Tom or I what the club was - Tom because he was immature and me they didn't want to traumatize or horrify.
Today they finally tell me it's a swing club. And to quote the one girl (in scandalized tone) "people walk around naked and there's different themed room" and the new guy was asking if it was the kind of place "where you could trade wives and stuff like that." "Yeah, or they all get together."
I, mean while, am both severely disappointed and trying to keep a straight face. Because after all that "once you know what it is you'll be scarred" I find out it's exactly what I figured it was. Granted, I clearly don't have their hands-on experience with this place but still. It takes more than kinky sex to traumatize me ^_~
I don't like the one new guy. He already shows all the symptoms of "If I don't have to do it, I'm not going to. Nor will I do it if I don't want to."
And I'm damned tired of doing the job of two point five people while everyone else does their own job and little else. I'm exhausted, frustrated, tired and snarky. I'm also so behind on my writing it literally makes me cry. I promised myself I'd never be the type of writer to mistreat her readers and yet that's exactly what I'm doing. I owe ki-chan, mailechan, seahawke, anatari and probaby several others stories (especially sea, jeez it's a wonder she even speaks to me anymore) and I want to finish Treasure and work more on Midsummer and so many others. I vowed to write 2000 words a day, which should be easy for me to do, but somehow I always make excuses and don't do it. Which frustrates me more and so the spiraling continues.
I want a break. A nice long weekend where I can clean my room, take a nice walk and listen to music while I write without feeling anxious or guilty about a bajillion other things. Over the weekend I begin to feel better but by the time I'm relaxed it's time to go to work again. And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, so forgive my whining.
All I have to do is make it through next week, hopefully. Gods I hope this guy accepts the position, b/c if not this will probably go on indefinitely.
Though, if for some reason I wind up not beig able to go to school, I had better see a fucking raise to end all raises when reviews come around.
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Date: 2005-02-03 01:39 am (UTC)