*tears hair out*

[maderr]

WHY CAN'T I EVER CATCH A BREAK /tantrum

I was *finally* where I needed to be to start paying off all my debts a bit each month - even with the f'ing arbitration hanging over my head.

Now GM is harassing me (rather Atlantic whatthefuckever) and I now have to give them $533.00 a month. B/t that and my school loans, I'm nearly back to being a fucking sponge and waste of space.

And don't even get me started. Even if I get the loans/grants/wtfever, I won't have any money to live on. I think I may just have to give it up and be a stupid office monkey the rest of my life.

Comments

[rykaine.livejournal.com]

meh You'll get there eventually.

'Sides, you don't need to go to school to study it. Remember that, too.

Now who do you want to see for V-day?

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Eventually seems awfully far away.

I know. If I could get my writing to go somewhere I might even be happy with my pitiful existence. Though it'll still depress me when you and bub are doctors and I'm not.

I sent you an email. I think the cops, but I would settle for any of the stratton boys.

[rykaine.livejournal.com]

I doubt it's gonna happen any sooner for me. I just like my grand illusions of being a "doctor of prepositions" so I pretend it'll happen at some point resembling soon. I'll keep dreaming and likely end up in the government or an office much like you.

Either way, you'll get there. Just put the big hump behind you first.

And think "cruise".

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Hopefully I can still afford the cruise. Well, there's no way I'm bailing on it now. I'll try to stay positive, and I'm sure you'll be around to smack when I whine (I tried to spell that 'wine').

*cruise cruise cruise*

Doctor of Prepositions. You have to do it simply so that when people ask me what you do for a living, i can tell them that and snicker at their WTF???? looks.

*thud*

[amasugiru.livejournal.com]

That's the sound of my jaw hitting the floor in disbelief.

I don't understand anymore. I am going to get my ten foot pole.

Re: *thud*

[maderr.livejournal.com]

It's just a happy thought, Gomes. Me and Sammie have this crazy idea that my family could actually go on a real vacation for the first time in our life. But I know I have other priorities, never fear. No one knows better than me, so put your damn pole away and stop depressing me further.

[rykaine.livejournal.com]

I sent you an email.
Yeah... I'm still waiting on that e-mail. I reckon I'll get around 10-ish.

I think the cops,
Kyle and Erik? I think I can swing something with those, too.

but I would settle for any of the stratton boys.
Shit, I think I'll be doing one with Val and Alex anyway. I mean... how could I not?

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Val and Alex sound skippy to me! Woo hoo!

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

What IS up with that whole arbitration thing anyway? I wanted to ask before, but I didn't want to pry... maybe we can catch each other on MSN if you don't want to post here... or you can just not tell me at all.

I know what it's like to live from paycheck to paycheck. We always figured it was one of the reasons we got along so well. Hang in there, because hey, at least you CAN make the payments they want you to make. Good luck.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Ang, I've never felt there was a reason to keep something from you. None I can recall, anyway. Even if you say it goes in one ear and out the other, I know you listen. You have no idea how much I miss you guys, I think I start crying damn near every time I hear from you. I don't know what's up with the arbitration. I got tired of reporting to Little Miss Snotty in CA and send what money I can when I can. I think my dad is going to take a turn at it.


Promise me one of us will become someone that doesn't live paycheck to paycheck and can invite the rest of us up for a party every now and then. But yeah, at least I can sort of manage the payments. Thanks, Duckie.

I miss roommates I could randomly hug and use as a pillow. I think stress makes me sentimental *rolls eyes* I'm going before I wax poetic or something.

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

If you're feeling up to it, shoot me an email about this arbitration thing. I don't know what caused it or who brought it against you or anything like that. I hope your dad can work something out for you. That would be good.

Yes, one of us just HAS to make it so that we aren't living the paycheck-to-paycheck lifestyle anymore. It sucks. But, as I said, find the silver lining and at least you have a reason to scowl a little less.

I miss my roommates at times, too! Although I take a certain pleasure in living on my own and essentially "making it" on my own... it was still nice to be able to walk into the next room and harrass someone to go to dinner.

Go ahead, wax away. Hehe. *hugs*

[maderr.livejournal.com]

I seriously doubt you want me doing poetry, or don't you remember the poetry class we both took, where the teacher basically said "it's cute you're trying but face it - you suck"

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

LMAO.... I have blocked that class from my memory, but poetry.com won't let me forget that I submitted one of my poems (in order to register for something else). "Angela, you could be our Poet of the Year!" BULLSHIT. :o)

I think you and I are in the same poetry boat. Now and forever.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Woo hoo! Bad poets unite!

I will never forget that class, or the...memorable...teacher.

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

haha, too true. Jay, was it? I can't remember his last name for the life of me, but I remember his stutter... and the fact that, though I was always in the presence of over-educated academic types at Big Dick, he was one of the few who I ever felt brainless around. Damn poetry.


There once was a man from Nantucket...

[mashoogina.livejournal.com]

I know something that rhymes with Nantucket...

FUCK IT

And that my friends, is the moral of this story.

*plays Mr. Rogers theme*

[abiona-sashenka.livejournal.com]

You're incorrigible. I have no idea if I spelled that right.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

I just want to let you know that I have a dead walrus in my underpants.

I had need to give that update somewhere.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

That would certainly explain the smell.

[hayama-sb.livejournal.com]

I don't want to know why you were smelling his underpants.

[mashoogina.livejournal.com]

CHILD

What the fuck is going on??? I think someone needs a care package urgently. That is my mission for tomorrow: to make you a care package.

Shoot me an e-mail too and fill me in on this arbitration bullshit. I am totally lost *MOTHERFUCKERS DO NOT SLAM THE DOOR AT MIDNIGHT* about what's going????????

E-MAIL ME!!!!!!!!

I loves you... come visit this summer or even Alumni Weekend in the Fall??? You always got some place to stay.

xoxoxoxo
Loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[indigoraven.livejournal.com]

I don't know if you would really want to randomly hug me, I certainly have enough stuffing to be used as a pillow... but I do miss you. I recall many evenings spent with a Deer, a Duck, and a Highlander. Some days I wish I could have gotten myself together and stuck it out, but I know I've done a better thing for myself.

However, as I have often told the Duck, my home is open to you if you ever wish to spend some time in the glorious state of Washington. So there is your invite. Hopefully, Rich can soon be working as a chemist and then, we will no longer be living paycheck to paycheck.. Once that happens, I may buy you a plane ticket. If you want it.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Meg, it would be awesome to see you again. It's true you and D'son didn't get along so well, but I always thought you were awesome. I miss you as much as I miss the others. The way it's looking, I may be giving up going to grad school for a bit, so maybe I'll have time to come see you at some point.

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Don't do that.
Even if you have no money to live on, don't sacrifice your dream to be an office monkey.
All I can suggest is perhaps live off of ramen noodles.
That's all I got.

[mailechan.livejournal.com]

Oh man! You know, you may want to try to find an agency to consolidate your payments. That's what I ended up having to do, what with student loans, credit card bills and what-not.

Whatever you do, do not give up. *hugs and loves*

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Not giving up. Even after the letter saying "Oops, no. can't consolidate your student loans" I am NOT GIVING UP.

Thank you *hugs*

[mewbert.livejournal.com]

Well, um, I've got a $16.27, a handful of tic-tacs, and some very colorful string that I can give you. I'm particularly impressed with the string. I think I may even some rainbow-colored thread around here somewhere... that's like, DELUXE treatment.(This is what happens when you do nothing but read stories and make reeds all day.)

But, I suppose none of that is very helpful, unless I can somehow build you a boat out of oboe reeds. That would be sweet, though. It would be both relaxing AND musical. Annnd I'm off topic again.

The POINT is: feel better. I know it's kind of impossible given the circumstances, but at least try. Umm, and remember, we all love you..? I suck at comforting. But hey. FREE OBOE CRUISE.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

You make me giggle, and laughter cures all things. Thank you. *loves*

[goofyrobo.livejournal.com]

Don't make excuses to not go forward, or then you will be an office monkey forever.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

No worries. I may bitch and moan, but I'm still moving forward.