I miss unemployment
May. 26th, 2005 07:16 pmBecause as stressful as it was to have no money and all, at least I had time to do the things I wanted. The things I love. I'm so sick of myself for always being too tired to write, or even read these days. How pathetic is that?
And I could defend myself, but really I'm just making excuses. There are people who put up with a hell of a lot more than I do and still get lots of stuff done after work. I think sometimes I just feel sorry for myself because it seems that someone *always* has it worse than I do and that makes me feel I have no right to complain. That and I don't do stressed very quietly - I tend to get noiser the more hassled I am. NOt like shouting and threats and stuff...just noisy. I wanted to smack this one guy today who implied I wasn't a very calm person. Though his implication was phrased "I'm more calmer than most people" so his words are getting taken with a grain of salt or fifty.
I'm really hoping I can get some stuff done over the three day weekend. If not? Then I really am a fucking loser who does not deserve to be published. Seriously. Where the hell did my discipline go? Has anyone seen it?
And why are all my comfort drinks full of caffeine? ARGHNESS SUPREME. Well, there's always chamomile but that'll put me right to sleep at this point.
Argh, Megan. Shut up already.
And I could defend myself, but really I'm just making excuses. There are people who put up with a hell of a lot more than I do and still get lots of stuff done after work. I think sometimes I just feel sorry for myself because it seems that someone *always* has it worse than I do and that makes me feel I have no right to complain. That and I don't do stressed very quietly - I tend to get noiser the more hassled I am. NOt like shouting and threats and stuff...just noisy. I wanted to smack this one guy today who implied I wasn't a very calm person. Though his implication was phrased "I'm more calmer than most people" so his words are getting taken with a grain of salt or fifty.
I'm really hoping I can get some stuff done over the three day weekend. If not? Then I really am a fucking loser who does not deserve to be published. Seriously. Where the hell did my discipline go? Has anyone seen it?
And why are all my comfort drinks full of caffeine? ARGHNESS SUPREME. Well, there's always chamomile but that'll put me right to sleep at this point.
Argh, Megan. Shut up already.
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Date: 2005-05-26 11:58 pm (UTC)There was one summer here where I had no job and was just taking one summer class during one of the summer sessions and I had sooooo much time on my hands. I got so much written and I was so happy with what I wrote. But I was so screwed up and so stressed out from not having a job and not having money and feeling like a worthless lump of stupidness, that I'm not sure it was actually what I'd term good times. O_o;;
There are people who put up with a hell of a lot more than I do and still get lots of stuff done after work.
Ahh! Don't think like that! (Or, if it helps you to think like that, feel free. ^_^;;) Everyone's got their own set of circumstances and their own endurance levels. Just because it seems like a lot to you, doesn't necessarily mean that it is to them. It's likely that in your shoes, they'd accomplish the same amount you do.
(And if that doesn't sway you, you did just get back from vacation and you are still working a full time week, aren't you? That's not exactly saying stress free and lots of extra time to me. Give yourself some credit. It's been a busy week.
...Although, if I don't get my SMP story finished tonight, I might have this same argument for myself. -_-;;)
And why are all my comfort drinks full of caffeine?
Caffiene = will to live
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Date: 2005-05-27 12:24 am (UTC)if I don't get my SMP story finished tonight
All I have to say to that is OH FUCK. If this does not teach me the pitfalls of procrastinating, nothing ever will.
Caffiene = will to live
Amen to that.
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Date: 2005-05-27 12:35 am (UTC)*smooch*
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Date: 2005-05-27 12:47 am (UTC)And I will be glad when it's done because I'm getting overly obsessed with thinking about it and it's driving me slightly mad. X_x (And funny how the fact that the minimum of 1500 words is not making it any easier to write...)
Still, I think, given the poll, it's safe to say at the moment that we aren't the only ones who procrastinated. ^-^;; I know of two people out of the eighteen listed who have gotten their stories written and mailed off by this point.
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Date: 2005-05-27 12:52 am (UTC)*still can't beleive she read that wrong*
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Date: 2005-05-27 01:14 am (UTC)How the hell do people do it? Particularly if it's original?X_x I think okay! I'll write this short story.And by the time Character X finally meets Character Y I'm already a thousand words in. >_>;;
Still...15,000 is really kind of long. (Although, with two and a half months to write, that might have made more sense as a minimum. *laughs*)
I know you said you were outlining yours. How's that coming? *looks curious* Have you started writing yet? (Can I live in complete awe of you if you are? ^-^;;)
Ooooh boy, and I'm procrastinating as we speak...-_-;;
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Date: 2005-05-27 01:17 am (UTC)So far the outline is really working. At least, as an outline. We'll see if it continues to work when I actually start, you know, writing the story.
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Date: 2005-05-27 02:36 am (UTC)I know it well.
All your energies now belong to us.
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Date: 2005-05-27 02:40 am (UTC)Hehe ^^; What's next? Joining cults?
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Date: 2005-05-27 04:33 am (UTC)The only person you're really disappointing is yourself, and that's because you seem to be operating on some perverted believe that you're disappointing everyone else. You're not.
Go drink some more caffeine and enjoy the hours you've off from work. Work hours provide enough stress, without you contributing to it in the down time. Chill. And remember, the writing is supposed to be fun, not a chore. Limits and standards and OMG this should be finished yesterday will only take the enjoyment out of it.
Have a better day tomorrow, Meggie. ^_^
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Date: 2005-05-27 03:08 pm (UTC)I wouldn't let it bother you. From what I read in most author's notes, not many proffesional writers are very good with deadlines. If anything, your recent inability to meet them just shows your destined to be a proffesional writer.
And, by the by, Amanda has started reading Treasure and loves it muchly.
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Date: 2005-05-27 03:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-05-27 04:21 pm (UTC)You make me giggle ^_^ Is an author and deadlines like a doctor and handwriting then? Hehehe
AMANDA? READING TREASURE? *boggles*