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maderrWhy is it when I'm ready and eager to write, real life prevents me? And when I have free time, I'll be damned if I can write anything?
Today is the case of the former, though I do want to go fishing. I just also would like to write, or have motivation to catch up on LJ. I've reached my limit for interacting with the real world, so hopefully there wont' be too many other people around the fishing pond - though I'm sure Sarah will more than happily chatter at them. She's better at being social than I, though really *everyone* is better than me.
Need to do laundry, though I would get to early this afternoon as we weren't leaving until two/threeish but as I often am I was wrong about that and we are instead leaving at 1:30.
Want to write.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
miikarin has updated the Palace of Keys, which means I'll probably resume work on The Chimaera Key at some point in the very near future (argh why do I write so many fracking stories? I've already so failed at my goals it's sad).
Woke up cheerful, now am just cranky because I can't do the things I want and have no one but myself to blame for putting myself in WritingNowLeaveMeAlone Mode.
And I have to go to work tomorrow.
*sigh* Am going to go try to cheer myself up, as it no one's fault that I'm pissy because I can't write. Will try to get around to discussing the caves (which were awesome) and stuff whenever we get back from fishing, which hopefully wont' be too late but knowing S and her obsession with fish I'm not holding my breath ^_~
And ki-chan, you and your emails are EVIL.
Today is the case of the former, though I do want to go fishing. I just also would like to write, or have motivation to catch up on LJ. I've reached my limit for interacting with the real world, so hopefully there wont' be too many other people around the fishing pond - though I'm sure Sarah will more than happily chatter at them. She's better at being social than I, though really *everyone* is better than me.
Need to do laundry, though I would get to early this afternoon as we weren't leaving until two/threeish but as I often am I was wrong about that and we are instead leaving at 1:30.
Want to write.
miikarin has updated the Palace of Keys, which means I'll probably resume work on The Chimaera Key at some point in the very near future (argh why do I write so many fracking stories? I've already so failed at my goals it's sad).Woke up cheerful, now am just cranky because I can't do the things I want and have no one but myself to blame for putting myself in WritingNowLeaveMeAlone Mode.
And I have to go to work tomorrow.
*sigh* Am going to go try to cheer myself up, as it no one's fault that I'm pissy because I can't write. Will try to get around to discussing the caves (which were awesome) and stuff whenever we get back from fishing, which hopefully wont' be too late but knowing S and her obsession with fish I'm not holding my breath ^_~
And ki-chan, you and your emails are EVIL.
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Date: 2005-06-12 05:16 pm (UTC)*long pause* Embrace? :3
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Date: 2005-06-12 05:29 pm (UTC)Thanks ^_^
And it's only because I love you that I'll not clobber you ^_~ For what it's worth, I've been pondering that story more and more lately. I even wrote a bit more of the latest chapter not too long ago:
Aubrey looked up at the portrait over the fireplace, of his family when it was whole. "Now that you've drunk my blood…if something happens to me, you'll die. That isn't fair. Why should two die where only one had to? That's what bothers me. Why should one person's life be dependant on the life of another?"
"Are not all people dependant on sustenance?" Ruthven shrugged, "It is not so bad as you think."
Brey dismissed his words with a wave of his hand. "Depending on water and food is quite a bit different from relying on a living person." Aubrey's gaze was lost to the portrait. "It is one thing to give your life for another because that is what you want; it is quite another to die simply because you have no choice." He looked at Ruthven, moss green eyes bright. "I do not want to be such a burden to another living creature." He stood up to leave, but Ruthven caught his arm and dragged him back down.
"Would you hate me less, Master, if I had a choice?"
"I don't hate you."
Ruthven pressed him down on the couch, looming over him. "Don't you?"
"No, I do not. I told you - does anyone ever listen to me? - I hate the situation."
"And if I was here because I wanted to be? If it was my choice?"
"It's not," Aubrey snapped, struggling to break Ruthven's hold. "And I don't believe in 'what if'. Dwelling on the impossible is futile."
Ruthven didn't budge, easily holding the smaller man still. He smiled, softly, and leaned down, pressing his lips to Brey's in a firm kiss.
Aubrey jerked his head away, green eyes wide. "Why the devil did you do that?"
Ruthven's smiled became a grin. "Because I wanted to." He released Brey and stood, holding out a hand to help him up.
Ignoring the offered hand, Aubrey sat up, straightening his clothes and smoothing his hair. "Do not do it again."
"As you wish. Master."
^_^
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Date: 2005-06-12 06:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-12 09:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-12 05:22 pm (UTC)Hope you get your writing done!
>.> Fishing. Never been fishing. Want to try it sometime. Sounds like fun.
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Date: 2005-06-12 05:25 pm (UTC)It is fun, so long as you're not squicked by the bait. I think today we're using corn, but my fist night out I drowned worms and got my hands bloodied with chicken livers. Second time out I learned how to bait minnows, which is kind of mean even though they don't feel it.
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Date: 2005-06-12 05:53 pm (UTC)*hugs* Hope the fishing goes good. (Hey, at the least, it should be a good time to relax and daydream, right?)
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Date: 2005-06-12 08:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-06-12 10:05 pm (UTC)YAY! YAY! YAY!
That's definitely motivation ^_^ *loves the Star*