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May. 9th, 2007 07:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maderrThings I would like to dismember:
*Spoiled brats who think only of themselves and never fucking care who they hurt or make miserable in the obtainment of their own desires and sparklies
*Lazy bitches who cause more work for others and completely don't care about that fact
*Black Magic
Things I would like to hug
*Kitty
*Family
*The very yummy tomatoes in my possession, except I'd really rather eat them, and so I shall
*All my peeps and readers here
I was recently emailed (and never replied, as can think what to say beyond "not worthy" and "I'm not that good, though I wish...") about setting up to charge for my writing. One, as I told Kitty, one reason I always put off such things is that I feel guilty asking for money. Me and money will ever be mortal enemies and I'm never comfortable taking it for any reasons. There are other reasons. I'm not asking people to say yay or nay, I def don't want that. No, no, no. I'm thinking aloud, not begging for comments. In fact, probably should turn them off *goes to do that*
Just having Monday off, I realize how much happier I am when the only 'job' stress I have is convincing Sorin and Koray that yes, they do in fact want to make out. I'd give anything to be able to live off my writing. There just seems to be so many hurdles to actually managing it >_o As it's obvious by this point I'll never be published, as I refuse to be associated with what seems to be a prepondorance of crap in slashdom.
I guess I should just sit down and figure out htf to do it all...but yargh overwhelming. And I hate making it seems like it's about the money, which is how I fear it comes off.
Blah blah blah.
Honestly I think this all comes down to Megan needing a break. Oh, September, why will you not hurry the fuck up? I'm going to break before you get here x_x
I still want to do something involving an angsty pretty boy in a mask. The image, it will not leave us, precious.
So want to make brownies, but that would mean eve less time to write tonight. Goddamn it, BM, fucking cooperate with me. The flashbacks work so well, the present day does not. Boo hiss.
/ramble
P.S. Funny story - I went out to the mall on Monday, so as not to fall asleep. Bought some manga. Was reading one (Umm....Lovers in the Night. So pretty.) and a guy sits down next to me and asks something about it...ah, he asked what book I was reading. I said it was a manga actually. He said "Oh, is that one of those smut books?" I about died laughing, then said I didn't think this one was, but some of my others were. He said "oh" and then proceeded to bitch about the evils of Starbucks ^__^ 'Twas verra amusing and cool.
Okay. Head cleared of frustrations and static noise. Off for round five I go!
*Spoiled brats who think only of themselves and never fucking care who they hurt or make miserable in the obtainment of their own desires and sparklies
*Lazy bitches who cause more work for others and completely don't care about that fact
*Black Magic
Things I would like to hug
*Kitty
*Family
*The very yummy tomatoes in my possession, except I'd really rather eat them, and so I shall
*All my peeps and readers here
I was recently emailed (and never replied, as can think what to say beyond "not worthy" and "I'm not that good, though I wish...") about setting up to charge for my writing. One, as I told Kitty, one reason I always put off such things is that I feel guilty asking for money. Me and money will ever be mortal enemies and I'm never comfortable taking it for any reasons. There are other reasons. I'm not asking people to say yay or nay, I def don't want that. No, no, no. I'm thinking aloud, not begging for comments. In fact, probably should turn them off *goes to do that*
Just having Monday off, I realize how much happier I am when the only 'job' stress I have is convincing Sorin and Koray that yes, they do in fact want to make out. I'd give anything to be able to live off my writing. There just seems to be so many hurdles to actually managing it >_o As it's obvious by this point I'll never be published, as I refuse to be associated with what seems to be a prepondorance of crap in slashdom.
I guess I should just sit down and figure out htf to do it all...but yargh overwhelming. And I hate making it seems like it's about the money, which is how I fear it comes off.
Blah blah blah.
Honestly I think this all comes down to Megan needing a break. Oh, September, why will you not hurry the fuck up? I'm going to break before you get here x_x
I still want to do something involving an angsty pretty boy in a mask. The image, it will not leave us, precious.
So want to make brownies, but that would mean eve less time to write tonight. Goddamn it, BM, fucking cooperate with me. The flashbacks work so well, the present day does not. Boo hiss.
/ramble
P.S. Funny story - I went out to the mall on Monday, so as not to fall asleep. Bought some manga. Was reading one (Umm....Lovers in the Night. So pretty.) and a guy sits down next to me and asks something about it...ah, he asked what book I was reading. I said it was a manga actually. He said "Oh, is that one of those smut books?" I about died laughing, then said I didn't think this one was, but some of my others were. He said "oh" and then proceeded to bitch about the evils of Starbucks ^__^ 'Twas verra amusing and cool.
Okay. Head cleared of frustrations and static noise. Off for round five I go!
