Bah

[maderr]

I'm sick of it. There are so many times I just want to pack up and go the fuck home. I'm tired of spoiled brats, I'm tired of being left in the dark and stabbed in the back, I'm tired of every day being a goddamn battle, I'm tired of other people taking all the fucking credit, and I'm tired of dirty old married men asking if I'd like them to show me what a real man can do.

Now I'm going to go pretend this whole goddamn fucking day never happened.

Comments

[captainschlumpy.livejournal.com]

You know, sometimes the easy descision isn't the wrong one. From reading your journal, you seem to get a lot of strength and encouragement from your family and a lot of grief and heartache from your job. Maybe looking into moving closer to them isn't such a bad idea? not trying to be preachy or all, "let me tell you, young 'un" but having been in a similar situation I found that doing what is comfortable can be a good step on the path to finally finding what works. I'm sending cheerful thoughts your way!

[alixkat.livejournal.com]

Yeah I agree with this. You know, saving up a little egg and moving back to NC, you'll be near the family that gives you support, within driving distance of me at W&M whenever you need a break or feel like stabbing someone in the face you can come to W-burg or I can meet you halfway for lunch (not sure what's halfway, but I'm sure I'll figure that out at some point).

Plus, moving back near the fam and looking for a better job can lead to other things... like that elusive MA... maybe in creative writing?

Don't get stuck on that gerbil wheel that you're on right now.

[silrini.livejournal.com]

Awww. *sends sympathy to you* I'm sorry you had such a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow is better. Poor maderr...*gives hug*

[nikerymis.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: Can offer the first part of Steve to cheer you up?

As for the married men, you could always tell them that you'd love to see what a real man could do, but unfortunately there's a lack of them in the immediate area.

(also, music high, wooo *___*)

There's something to be said for living at/near home, too. If that's the decision you do end up making, you shouldn't feel bad about it. Family is awesome, and I wish I were closer to mine sometimes and am glad that I didn't go further from home for college or post-college.

[sixpence1323.livejournal.com]

Damn, I really hope you feel better!

[raielchan.livejournal.com]

Good luck! Feel better!

[hollyxu.livejournal.com]

Delurking to offer hugs!

Do what feels right, though some smacking would not go amiss, in this case. *hands you hammer of doom*

[alixkat.livejournal.com]

You coming to stay with MEEEEEEE soon and Lucas for Alumni Weekend and I am SOOO excited cos now that I know when you're coming (well, I need to figure out when Lucas is coming, read: what time) I can plan better.

So yay for us!!! A fun weekend, we appreciate and love you. Just what we all need right now sooooo badly.

<3 u lovely girl!

[scary-sushi.livejournal.com]

I'm tired of dirty old married men asking if I'd like them to show me what a real man can do.

*dies laughing* Are you serious? Oh, for the love of... This is incredible. I wonder if you should only be offended, or really offended and disgusted and horrified.

I wholeheartedly agree, though; apparently, the friend that I was most like (read 'shy/un-boyfriendable') is actually engaged. Engaged! I don't know how to react: whether to be hurt she didn't tell me anything until now (but then, we are countries apart) or whether to feel inadequate because everyone is shacking up and I'm still at the 9-year-old stage where boys don't go near me because I have cooties. I dunno if it relates to your situation at all on the surface, but I thoroughly approve of hate of meddling old coots that desire a nubile young woman xD

(I'd have to say one thing, though: it's hard being away from family, but I found the independence you get out of it is often addictive. Every time I go back home, I happily remind myself I can leave.)