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maderrI made it clear I wasn't in the mood to talk. I said I wasn't feeling well. If after all the indications and statements I gave you, you keep talking to me and I bite your head off? LISTEN TO ME WHEN I TELL YOU DON'T FUCKING TALK TO ME.
It's not obvious here, I'm certain, cause A)I'm comfortable writing in a way I will never be speaking and 3) Everyone is braver on the interwebs but I am shy. Painfully shy. There's a lot of shit I simply cannot do as easily as others. Laughing at me and telling me it's easy just makes me feel stupid, and then it makes me hate you for being a fucking jerk.
If you're pissed off with me, and so giving me The Silent Treatment like a five year old? You might at least want to let me know why you're pissed off, cause right now I'm clueless and vastly amused. Punishing me does no good if I don't know why I'm even being fucking punished.
My life would be much more tolerable if the Rain rewrite had not decided a few days ago to hate me and come to a crashing halt. I don't know where I took a wrong turn, I can't fucking figure out what I'm supposed to be doing, and it's making me angry. I'm tired of dropping stories when they run up against a brickwall. I'm not doing fuck anything until Rain cooperates. If I'd done that with Midnight, I would currently not be letting down the person who paid so much money for it.
Bah. Monday fucking sucks, and as per usual when I most need a friend, there is no one around.
It's not obvious here, I'm certain, cause A)I'm comfortable writing in a way I will never be speaking and 3) Everyone is braver on the interwebs but I am shy. Painfully shy. There's a lot of shit I simply cannot do as easily as others. Laughing at me and telling me it's easy just makes me feel stupid, and then it makes me hate you for being a fucking jerk.
If you're pissed off with me, and so giving me The Silent Treatment like a five year old? You might at least want to let me know why you're pissed off, cause right now I'm clueless and vastly amused. Punishing me does no good if I don't know why I'm even being fucking punished.
My life would be much more tolerable if the Rain rewrite had not decided a few days ago to hate me and come to a crashing halt. I don't know where I took a wrong turn, I can't fucking figure out what I'm supposed to be doing, and it's making me angry. I'm tired of dropping stories when they run up against a brickwall. I'm not doing fuck anything until Rain cooperates. If I'd done that with Midnight, I would currently not be letting down the person who paid so much money for it.
Bah. Monday fucking sucks, and as per usual when I most need a friend, there is no one around.
