Amaretto Sour

I realize that so far as the slashverse goes, I lose a lot of standing by never taking my stories into smutland. But I have my reasons and I will stand by them, even when it means this or that story will never be published or as popular as it would otherwise be. I'm not in this to be popular; such a thing would in fact freak me out. I like attention, I ain't gonna lie. Anyone who does this sort of thing does.

Anyway. I hate stories that are smut first, plot a cute little addition. And I don't mean the shameless pr0n variety - those never pretend to be anything except a smutfest, and there's certainly no goddamn crime in just wanting a quick and dirty fix.

What I detest are those stories that claim to be stories, things with plots and characterization...and if you were to rip the smut out there would be no story left. I hate that. Why the fuck should I care about two people involved in what amounts to a fuckfest? Fine, it's meaningful, emotional, they grow and change from it. But life ain't just growing through fucking, and I hate when those other elements never really and truly factor into the story.

I say all this knowing good and well my stories are not the most stellar ever. I've never claimed to write anything but nonsencial fluff, be it ten pages of snarky school boys, twenty pages of fairytale abuse, or a longer story about dragon gods. But I like to think those hold interest, and that people remember them for at least a little while. All I'll remember about the story I just finished is that after the third fucking it got redudandant, and there was nothing about the chars to really make me care about them.

Maybe I'm just picky and taking my frustrations out in the wrong place. I mean it's erotica, plot isn't always the primary consideration. I guess it's weird to associate porn with plot - yet I know I'm not alone in that adverse thought. I'm sorry but if after subtracting the smut you find there's no story left? And I don't mean like pyscho complicated plot o'doom here - just a character thing would suffice. But usually even that's just scratch the surface, not enough to make me care sort of thing. There's a world of difference b/t the pr0n you find in the dollar bin (so to speak) and series where you grow seriously attached to the chars and actually give a damn what happens to them. Shameless and plotless has it's place -- but be up front about it, instead of masquerading as a story of some substance.

Boo hiss.

/rant

I apologize if this made no sense. Me cranky and sleepy should not be allowed near a keyboard.

I get my hopes up about a story only for it to ultimately disapoint. It's so depressing.

But I guess I ask for it, given what my preferences are.

My favorite...elements? I guess you'd say have the pitfall of no easy resolution. I love rivals turned lovers. I love enemies turned lovers. I love vilians that turn good w/out becoming washed out little weaklings who only Do Good. Vegeta from DBZ is the penultimate in this. He never stops being a fucking bastard; he joined the good guys because he fucking hates Goku and doesn't want anyone else kicking his ass. Darth Vader was my first true love. A villian who turns good again on his own fucking terms.

The story I read was interesting. But I wasn't buying it, not at all. Maybe because I was hoping for something else, though I wasn't surprised by what happened.

From this sort of thing, of course, spawns a couple of stories. All my stories are an effort to write in a subject/genre/stereotype that pisses me off in an effort to write a story that *doesn't* piss me off. Embrace is a primse example of this. That story will be cool when I get around to introducing the plot. DwtD was partially spawned from my rabid hate of most ghost stories (and by ghost stories, I mean of the bodice ripper variety where heroine or whatever falls in love with a ghost) - more accurately, Chris's parents were the result of my hate of most ghost stories and the rest was just my desire to write a paranormal detective story. Don't get me started, we'll be here all day.

However, the penultimate story in railing against things that annoy me or piss me off, or trying something new is Prisoner. Specifically Dieter, who is a bastard. He's an ass. He's not a nice guy at all. And yeah there will be things that soften his bastardneses, but at the end of the story he's still going to be a bastard. Leopards and spots and all that. There are other elements that include railing against shit that annoys me, but I can't say without spoiling the story. But Dieter is the primary. In any other story, he would be a villian. Everyone would hate him. He'd probably die a miserable fucking death at Beraht's hands and Beraht would happily go off to marry Lady Mary Sue Princess Wet Dream the OSC some noble, strong despite her suffering, yet sweet and gentle chick.

SCREW THAT SHIT.

I'm going to write about a bastard, and I'm going to make the world like him in all his bastardness despite all efforts to hate him. Not all bastards are villians, and you don't have to turn a Wolf into a Puppy to make him a Good Guy. There will be no coping out. I hate that above and beyond all things. If I can successfully write a Yuber/Albert fic, then I can write Dieter. And I can do it, so can the rest of the world. So if you're going to write enemies turned lovers, stop fucking chopping their balls off first. If there's love there, it might just kinda sorta possibly relate to the hate, so you can't exactly pull the punches can you?

( I'm not done yet, but I'm wandering )