Blarghity

[maderr]

Why does it seem the harder I try, the worse off I am?

Was served an "arbitration notice" a little before xmas - have no idea how to respond to it -_-;; Am now broke again b/c I had to fork over everything to try and pay part of that, plus a school loan (and crap I just realized the other one starts up again this month).

Don't think I'm going to make the open call simply because I have too much else to do this month. How sad is that? I want to write, to be a writer, and I don't even have to time to submit a fracking novel to an open call. As much as I like the stories that are near completion...let's face it. They're not really publish worthy. Treasure and Kidnapped *might* be - if I nixed most of the slash. I'm this close to fixing or finishing one of them and saying fuck it. I mean the worst they can say is no, and I'm already used to hearing that.

I've been rather a lousy person of late. Haven't thanked everyone for gifts, haven't been commenting, haven't even been writing. Well, that's a lie. I have been writing. I'm a good way through three short stories...but I'm stuck on all of them. Even Geniuses has just suddenly dried up on me.

I just wish everything would STOP for a day, so I could catch my breath and figure out what to do and how to do it.

All right, no more bitching. I swore I'd stop doing that all the time in LJ. Next several posts will be positive, and by god they'll contain stories if I have to beat myself silly to write them. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me, there's no excuse for all this getting nothing done -_-;;

Comments

[hakuyama.livejournal.com]

I know you can.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Funny how just a few words can almost make a person cry. Thanks.

[thealisonbailey.livejournal.com]

Happy puppy. You have to lick your ass and go about your day with a smile on your face.

Polish up a story and send it off. It can't be accepted if you don't send it in. If you don't finish the story you want before the open call ends, it's not the end of the world. Heck, it may be even better than sending it to the open call, 'cause now you have a completed manuscript to shop around to different publishers.

We all have our off seasons. Winter's stressful, so if you feel like you've not said enough to people or written enough, it might not all be you.

Take a day off whenever you can to just sit and think about things. Give yourself time to catch up and figure out where to go from here.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Happy puppy. You have to lick your ass and go about your day with a smile on your face.


Only you ^_^

You are ever a voice of reason and source of comfort, even when I should be getting my but kicked.

[thealisonbailey.livejournal.com]

You've yet to do anything that requires my kicking your conjunction.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

*facepalm*

[mailechan.livejournal.com]

On the contrary. There is a very good excuse. It's because you never had time to recover from your Christmas travelling nightmare and are still stressed from it. One frustration leads to another, they say.

When you get home, do NOT get online. Go take a hot bath, eat a half-dozen booze-filled chocolates and have a good meal. Play a video game, and go to bed.

You might be surprised at how the muses jump all over you when you're NOT paying attention to them. ^_^

[maderr.livejournal.com]

That actually makes a lot of sense. And you give such wonderful advice. *loves*


...and I don't think there's half a dozen of those Evil Chocolates left.

[stardance.livejournal.com]

Make sure to tell me what I've missed when I get the chance to catch up!!!! I think you are good enough to be published <.< *hugs* I'll look into stopping the world for you.

[maderr.livejournal.com]

*snuggles* I hope things are going well enough over there, or that they'll at least settle down soon. I miss seeing you on my flist.