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maderrWhy does it seem the harder I try, the worse off I am?
Was served an "arbitration notice" a little before xmas - have no idea how to respond to it -_-;; Am now broke again b/c I had to fork over everything to try and pay part of that, plus a school loan (and crap I just realized the other one starts up again this month).
Don't think I'm going to make the open call simply because I have too much else to do this month. How sad is that? I want to write, to be a writer, and I don't even have to time to submit a fracking novel to an open call. As much as I like the stories that are near completion...let's face it. They're not really publish worthy. Treasure and Kidnapped *might* be - if I nixed most of the slash. I'm this close to fixing or finishing one of them and saying fuck it. I mean the worst they can say is no, and I'm already used to hearing that.
I've been rather a lousy person of late. Haven't thanked everyone for gifts, haven't been commenting, haven't even been writing. Well, that's a lie. I have been writing. I'm a good way through three short stories...but I'm stuck on all of them. Even Geniuses has just suddenly dried up on me.
I just wish everything would STOP for a day, so I could catch my breath and figure out what to do and how to do it.
All right, no more bitching. I swore I'd stop doing that all the time in LJ. Next several posts will be positive, and by god they'll contain stories if I have to beat myself silly to write them. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me, there's no excuse for all this getting nothing done -_-;;
Was served an "arbitration notice" a little before xmas - have no idea how to respond to it -_-;; Am now broke again b/c I had to fork over everything to try and pay part of that, plus a school loan (and crap I just realized the other one starts up again this month).
Don't think I'm going to make the open call simply because I have too much else to do this month. How sad is that? I want to write, to be a writer, and I don't even have to time to submit a fracking novel to an open call. As much as I like the stories that are near completion...let's face it. They're not really publish worthy. Treasure and Kidnapped *might* be - if I nixed most of the slash. I'm this close to fixing or finishing one of them and saying fuck it. I mean the worst they can say is no, and I'm already used to hearing that.
I've been rather a lousy person of late. Haven't thanked everyone for gifts, haven't been commenting, haven't even been writing. Well, that's a lie. I have been writing. I'm a good way through three short stories...but I'm stuck on all of them. Even Geniuses has just suddenly dried up on me.
I just wish everything would STOP for a day, so I could catch my breath and figure out what to do and how to do it.
All right, no more bitching. I swore I'd stop doing that all the time in LJ. Next several posts will be positive, and by god they'll contain stories if I have to beat myself silly to write them. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me, there's no excuse for all this getting nothing done -_-;;
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Date: 2005-01-05 12:43 pm (UTC)*snuggles* I hope things are going well enough over there, or that they'll at least settle down soon. I miss seeing you on my flist.