Time to Vent
Mar. 4th, 2004 09:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maderrI'm tired of the fucking jabs about my always being on the computer. Tired of it. Especially when my time on said computer is spent trying to shape my future. Yes, I'm always here. No, it's NOT FUNNY when jokes are made about my ass being glued to it. Pretend for two fucking minutes that I'm trying to build a website, that I have no idea how to do so but am desperately trying to learn.
Also pretend that to write my stories I have to be on the computer to type them. There's no choice in this. Yes, I can write by hand. But in order to post them I need to - oh gee - type them on the fucking computer.
While we're pretending, let's imagine I'm also paying bills that I can barely manage, trying to find a new job and looking into how best to print the stories that I fantasize about seeing in print.
Speaking of my writing. I think I'm a good writer, but I don't consider myself a stunning one. Not yet, anyway. But I take it seriously enough that I'm getting sick of people just brushing it aside. I don't mean to ignore my friends but do you know how hard it is to try and write when you have people chatting at you nonstop? It's impossible. This applies to people on and off line. Especially when after talking to me for hours on end they want to know how the writing goes. It's hard to write when you have to give all your attention to the speaker.
I'm mostly mad right now at a certain rl person who couldnt' say "can I use the computer" or "do you mind if take the comp." No, it's "after this I'm taking it." I don't mind sharing, but don't fucking order me around. JUST ASK IT'S NOT THAT HARD. Especially as it's my computer.
I'm being unfair, I know I am. But I wanted to get a lot done today and I got ZILCH done. Because people were talking and my writing is always second place.
Edit: This makes it sound like I don't want to talk to my friends. Which isn't true. My major dilemna is that I want to tal to them, but I can never get away with just an hour or two. So before I realize it my entire day is gone and I've accomplished nothing. I guess mostly I'm mad at myself, because that's really the only person I can blame here. Nargh, I hate being short tempered. I need a babysitter. Sammie always kept me in check, but she had to go to Russia. Damn you Rykaine!
Also pretend that to write my stories I have to be on the computer to type them. There's no choice in this. Yes, I can write by hand. But in order to post them I need to - oh gee - type them on the fucking computer.
While we're pretending, let's imagine I'm also paying bills that I can barely manage, trying to find a new job and looking into how best to print the stories that I fantasize about seeing in print.
Speaking of my writing. I think I'm a good writer, but I don't consider myself a stunning one. Not yet, anyway. But I take it seriously enough that I'm getting sick of people just brushing it aside. I don't mean to ignore my friends but do you know how hard it is to try and write when you have people chatting at you nonstop? It's impossible. This applies to people on and off line. Especially when after talking to me for hours on end they want to know how the writing goes. It's hard to write when you have to give all your attention to the speaker.
I'm mostly mad right now at a certain rl person who couldnt' say "can I use the computer" or "do you mind if take the comp." No, it's "after this I'm taking it." I don't mind sharing, but don't fucking order me around. JUST ASK IT'S NOT THAT HARD. Especially as it's my computer.
I'm being unfair, I know I am. But I wanted to get a lot done today and I got ZILCH done. Because people were talking and my writing is always second place.
Edit: This makes it sound like I don't want to talk to my friends. Which isn't true. My major dilemna is that I want to tal to them, but I can never get away with just an hour or two. So before I realize it my entire day is gone and I've accomplished nothing. I guess mostly I'm mad at myself, because that's really the only person I can blame here. Nargh, I hate being short tempered. I need a babysitter. Sammie always kept me in check, but she had to go to Russia. Damn you Rykaine!
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Date: 2004-03-04 07:12 pm (UTC)I have to say I admire your drive to write and wish you good fortune on that. Someday, I hope to ressurect my own muse.
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Date: 2004-03-04 08:17 pm (UTC)Well, they're parents. I guess there's some sort of clause somewhere that says they can occasionally comandeer my property. It's just the ordering tone that peeves me.
Thank you, very much.
That and you do owe them for bringing you into this world...
Date: 2004-03-05 05:20 am (UTC)But, I am not going to start WW3. If its becoming that big of a problem then either have them buy their own computer or give them yours and save up for a new one. Those are just two jolly suggestions I have.
Of course, I NEVER see you so I take offense to this post ;)
Re: That and you do owe them for bringing you into this world...
Date: 2004-03-05 08:08 am (UTC)Wasn't WW3 You and the Tool That Shall Not Be Named.
I'm usualy up 'til like 3:30 each night, I just alwayf forget to sign on to msn and talk to you. I'll find you tomorrow.
And you can stop being offended, b/c if I never talk to you then I can't very well mean you can I? Like I told Allie, it's mostly directed at RL. Not you guys.
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Date: 2004-03-04 10:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-04 10:13 pm (UTC)thank you.
aren't you the one starparty calls the "other SaraH" ? I think I actually confused the two of you once...I still cringe about that.
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Date: 2004-03-05 09:53 am (UTC)Really?? And just how did you manage to mix your evil twin up with someone else?! ;)
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Date: 2004-03-05 11:19 am (UTC)DRAT. Mixed them up again. I am hopeless with names. *goes to hide in corner*
erm...not telling...
Miss Derr!!!
Date: 2004-03-05 12:44 am (UTC)Re: Miss Derr!!!
Date: 2004-03-05 08:06 am (UTC)Eek! No, no, Allie. You were fine. I like talking to, and I haven't done so in forever. You always make me laugh.
Though if you show me anymore bloody penguines I may have to hurt you.
ha
Date: 2004-03-05 03:45 am (UTC)But I swear to god, if one more elbow slams into my chest...
Re: ha
Date: 2004-03-05 08:23 am (UTC)*snerk* I just like to offend you. I miss you, Sammie. Is it May yet?
Oh yeah
Date: 2004-03-05 03:46 am (UTC)I want a new color scheme. Please. And pics. But keep Goku. I like Goku. He makes me smile.
Back to Val!
Re: Oh yeah
Date: 2004-03-05 08:22 am (UTC)YOU WANT A NEW COLOR SCHEME???
okay, cool. I'll probably work on it tomorrow though. I'll even make you some new pics instead of just digging through my read collection.
Any thing I should/shouldn't use?
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Date: 2004-03-05 05:39 am (UTC)And, I thought the fam had a computer of their own? Why the hell do they want yours??
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Date: 2004-03-05 08:21 am (UTC)I know. Venting here means I remember that and do not tell my father what he can do with himself.
ahahaha - no. It's piece o'crap that starts hacking & coughing whenever you so much as breath on it.
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Date: 2004-03-05 08:38 am (UTC)And yes, tell them that it's really not so difficult to save $5 a week to get a new computer... and we all know one can be gotten for like $300.
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Date: 2004-03-05 08:51 am (UTC)That's because he's slowly but surely paying the money back to my cards. Actually doing okay on that front, though it will still be a long time before I'm even remotely out of debt.
Ha! Don't make me laugh. Did you know he said he'd get me a new comp when they got their tax money? yeah, and then he (and this is all him) bough my mom the 300 changer for their aniversary, swarvaski earrings, and a bunch of other crap. My dad is useless for money, I don't care what my mom claims to the contrary.
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Date: 2004-03-05 09:11 am (UTC)Money management is not a skill that runs deeply in that gene pool. It's a good thing you're trying to acquire it as a skill, cause it ain't in your blood, woman.
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Date: 2004-03-05 09:17 am (UTC)*snerk* Yeah, me + money = LOST CAUSE. But I'm working on it.
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Date: 2004-03-05 09:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-05 09:45 am (UTC)That's from something...
OH... Harry Potter... I'm a dumbass.