Sheesh

[maderr]

So didn't get in trouble, but everyone and his brother gave me motherfucking hell and a million guilt trips about not going to the IKON party tonight. Christ, I've had a long fucking week, I don't feel like partying 'til ten, I'm sorry that only adds to my loser status. *gives finger* Though, I guess really, I am just the loser. Even my roommate went to this one, and she never wants to go. But, what else is new? Megan sucks, no matter what she does.

To top that off, my headphones are dedz0r. As I am flat broke, given expenditures for which I did not plan *sigh* no new headphones til sometime after Hawaii.

In other news, Brandie bought me the 2008 Writer's Market *_* I never could have afforded it myself, and I tend to feel guilty buying things like that since I never seem to succeed at anything I try. But am trying, need to look more closely at some of the writing contests, since until I win some sort of place at some of those, a place like this is only going to laugh and reject me.

Wonder what to do for dinner, since I'm the only loser in IKON not going and therefore will not get the bbq etc they are having.

Comments

[skylark97.livejournal.com]

I've never understood why people do the guilt trip thing in those situations. It's like you want to set them down and say, 'look, if I wanted to go I would have said yes. I said no. Ergo, I don't want to go.' It seems simple enough to me in concept. O_o;; I usually give people a wishy washy answer in those situations, like 'oh, if I can manage it, I will.' and then just don't show up. >_>

I keep thinking I should have a complex about that. But! I don't. ^_^ I'm social when I want to be, and I'm not when I don't want to be. People have a hard time with that concept though, so you have to throw them off the trail every once in a while.

And I don't think it makes you a loser. It just means that you know your limits, and to be honest, I wish more people did. -_- Why bother going if you're too tired to have fun? Why go if you're only going because you feel guilted into doing so? Where's the fun in that?

Yeah for you in writing contests! *tackle glomps* You can do it. ^_______^!

[maderr.livejournal.com]

Heh. Someone who follows my logic ^^;; That always makes me feel better. Why don't I live close to any of you peeps? Instead I get all these horribly social people.

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